Make You Think

I’m back! Did you miss me? Probably not. Thursday I got my wisdom teeth out and it’s been a horrible experience ever since! If you are scheduled to get your wisdom teeth out then you better stop reading right here or you may never go. I was nervous from the beginning but my awesome man said he would take me to help calm my nerves and care for me, this made me feel slightly better until I met the doctor. This guy was a fucking asshole! I just paid OVER $1000 that I DON’T have and you’re going to be a dick to me?!?! I thought about walking out and the way I’m feeling today I should have!! He was rude, short, and just downright mean to me!

I have had 7 surgeries prior to this and have never had to take pain medicine, ever. This time…it’s 3 days later and I’m STILL on pain medicine. I can’t move my jaw with out pain that brings tears. My whole mouth hurts. And my lower jaw and lip is completely numb. Is this normal?!? It really scares me. I am not looking forward to the check up appointment on Tuesday and let’s just say it probably won’t go well for Mr. Doctor. I will be offering plenty of reviews on him too…none of which are good! And if his company has a survey…well that won’t be pretty either. He may be a decent doctor with without bedside manner he’s got nothing! It’s all about customer service, just like we say on the ambulance, they are a paying customer and we will do everything we can to make them more comfortable and satisfied. I am less than pleased and satisfied with this doctor and he will know it!

Every Sunday I check PostSecret for new secrets. If you’ve never seen this website before you need to check it out. I still miss the app bad but we’ll never see that again thanks to a few people that had to ruin it for everyone! : ( This week there was a secret that stood out at me, it was the very first one posted. It sends a bit of guilt through me because I am that girl, sort of. I’m the girl that all the older women hate for “stealing their men.” We’ve all heard it before, “why can’t I just find someone my own age?” I’ve said it before, you can’t help who you fall in love with. We never intended to fall in love, that’s definitely not what either of us were looking for, we both just needed a friend. It was at his (soon to be at the time) ex wife’s suggestion that we decided to become more. We love each other as friends, I think we both held back from more because of the age difference. Then one day we just said “fuck it, we’re in love and the world will deal with it.” And that was that.

I still have my insecurities sometimes, mostly when I see things like this picture. I’m not trying to “taking the older men,” not my intention at all, it just so happens that I fell in love with an older man. I don’t go out seeking older guys and he wasn’t after younger women…it just happened. I can understand why this woman posted what she did and her reason behind it, but it still makes me think that maybe our relationship is better in theory and not reality? Well, I really don’t care because I love him and I refuse to let him walk away no matter what. People will just have to get used to it.

Lazy…A Common Illness

I try not to let the little stuff bother me but the pure laziness at work is driving me crazy! No one cleans! EVER!! Trucks stay bug covered for weeks, nothing gets wiped down, dirty dishes left in sink for weeks, no sweeping, no cleaning…it’s just gross!! Even worse is when it comes to the trucks and equipment! I hate germs but apparently my coworkers enjoy them because I came in after a week off this truck and cleaned it to find this…

This was after just a few wipes and only about 1/4 of the truck! WTF people?!?! Then after spending two hours cleaning and wiping down the entire inside I spent 3 hours scrubbing weeks worth of bugs off the front of the truck. I mean the lack of respect and work ethic is making me crazy! I bust my ass daily with very little help, especially none from the full time staff!! I can’t wait to start this new job, at least I will not be alone in my work and it will finally be appreciated! After 3 consecutive 13 hour days of cleaning, all trucks are bug free, backboards scrubbed and disinfected, patient compartment disinfected, all equipment wiped down, bay clean, station clean, bathrooms clean, and still found time to go on 12 ambulance calls.

All my hard work will be undone shortly because I am off until next Tuesday at the very earliest. Tomorrow the dentist will remove all my wisdom! : ( I am so not looking forward to that appointment! But at the same time I can’t wait to get this done and over with. They have never hurt me, ever, but they are coming in way wrong and the dentist wants them out now. Joy. Then after that a little more dental work I have been putting off. Then after all of that it’s back to the orthodontist for me.

I spent SIX years in braces and because my teeth are stubborn and everything moved (despite the retainers) the orthodontist decided to put the upper braces back on (for free). After just 3 months with them on my teeth are back to straight and look great. Oh and if they every say, “hey we’re going to just jump to the biggest wire to move them fast” I would like to tell you that is would be best if you PASS on that option!! I have never hurt from braces until that move! I went to my check up and they said my teeth look great, I asked when the braces come off. The answer to my question? “I’m not, in fact I want to put the bottom braces back on too and fix that as well.” Ugh!! But my teeth will look pretty again. I already look several years younger than I am (I’m 25 and still getting carded), so lets slap some braces on and make it even better! : ( Oh well, life.

Today while out on one of many calls at work I came across something that made me laugh.

That sign is about 4 feet by 4 feet and in case you are unable to read the writing it says, “Slow down or die.” Haha welcome to rural EMS! : ) I’m sorry sir but it seems you are going to have to kill us for running lights and sirens to someone’s emergency because I’m not slowing down. What really cracks me up about this is the road it is located on and I really wish now that I had taken a picture of it but since I didn’t you will have to do with my description.

Today I was working in our smallest ambulance (thank goodness for that on this call!) and had I had the biggest truck we would not have been able to get to the patient’s house let alone the patient. This road was JUST wide enough for the truck, most of the time the wheels were in the mud and not even on a road. Trees along most of the road which scratched all down the sides (nothing I could do to avoid that) and if another car had come one of us would have been backing up until we found a driveway and that person would not have been me…sorry but this ambulance doesn’t go in reverse! lol Oh, and also this road does not connect to each other, there are two different sections of this road, despite what google maps, gps, cell phones, map book, and everything says, this road is NOT a thru street! The huge trees and over grown woods prove this, don’t bother trying.

Tomorrow is surgery, then off for a few days. I’m warning you now, I will no doubt be bored so expect some postings…or probably a lot of postings if I’m feeling well. Good night world! Tomorrow I will be 4 teeth lighter.