Where Have the Days Gone??

Life has been crazy! As usual, crazy busy! I had wonderful orientation and tons of fun, despite the problem child starting problems. I love my new job, it was so much fun! I love the people there and the bosses seem to like me. What little time I do have off has been spent caching…or sleeping. I’m really not sure how much I have slept, but I know it’s not much. I’ve been getting horrible migraines lately which are keeping me from sleeping. If you have migraines then you know that not sleeping makes the migraines worse. I haven’t done much of anything lately.

I have tried hiding some geocaches lately, which isn’t going so well. There are some trails around here that charge a fee to be used, which apparently means these fall in the “commercial geocache” rules. I have reviewed them MANY times and I have even found geocaches that required a fee to access, but somehow these weren’t “commercial geocaches” and mine is. I swear, nothing is easy. We have some rough caachers around here and some tough reviewers. So now I’ll have to wait and see what groundspeak says, but I really hope these get approved because I have a wonderful idea with them! Damn rules!!

I’m going to lay down some more. I hope all my bloggers out there are living a great life! Have fun and smile!

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Working My Ass Off!

Not that I have one to work off. One of my job, when I started there last year the guys swore they were going to make me fat. Well, they have failed so far because not only are they not making me fat, I seem to weigh less now. I’m one of those girls you hate because I can eat anything and everything and not gain an ounce. The difference between me and some of those girls though, I don’t go around calling myself fat. I also HATE that I can’t gain weight! I’m too freaking skinny and don’t like it at all!

Now with that said, I started my newest job this week. It has been my dream job! They keep telling us to be proud of ourselves, that not many people make it there. They picked us because we truly are the best in the field. Boy is the pressure on! I’m loving it! Loving the people, but the pressure…I’m freaking nervous! I’m afraid I don’t know enough, I’m afraid I’ll mess up, or not know the drugs or doses, or just…I’m fucking scared!!! But my man swears I know my stuff, that it all comes natural on a call, and that I was just born to be there. We shall see.

What does this jobĀ  have to do with having no ass? Well ALL of my uniform had to be ordered! I’m too freaking small! They had no shirts, dress shirts, polos, pants, boots, job shirts, coats…NOTHING in my size! They didn’t even have gear for me for vehicle accidents and what not. It’s horrible! But other than that…I FREAKING LOVE IT!!!!! They people are great, the job is great, the Chief is really cool, the officer staff is awesome…I just love it! I’m SO happy with the job! I will tell you more about the pressures and stuff, but for now I need sleep. I’m stuck at hell job tomorrow…it’s going to ruin my week!

Finally! Finally! FINALLY!!!!

Back when I started my EMS career, I had a department that was my goal to be on. I did everything to make it there, that’s what I wanted, that’s where I wanted to be. I haven’t posted much about this, but I did the written test for them a while back, then waited on a letter. After a wait that felt like FOREVER, I got a letter inviting me to the practical skills test.

I was SO nervous! But had a nice packet, cover letter, resume, reference letters, and handed it right to the Chief. They were impressed, where everyone else just brought the application and nothing more. My first test was ACLS…well FUCK! lol The patient lived, so I thought that was a good sign. Then moved on with the rest, the EKG test had me nervous because I wasn’t sure how much they wanted us to give, so I gave it all. I listed any MI, Axis deviation, you name it…I had it. I left there feeling ok, but not great because I was just nervous in general. I tried to laugh, look confident, and smile the entire time.

Today, while at the hospital with a patient, I ran into one of the guys that tested me. He recognized me, tracked me down, and said, “Hey, did you get your letter?” I wasn’t getting off till tonight, so I had no idea if it had come in the mail yet. I told him no, he said, “Oh well they mailed them yesterday so it sure be there today.” I told him I would be sure to look for it and to have a great shift. Then I started thinking…he said “did you get your letter”, not “how’d you do?” or anything like that…am I thinking too much into this? I tried to push it out of my mind.

A few hours later I got a text from my mom telling me a letter had come in the mail from the place I tested. I said ok and left it at that. I didn’t want her to open it because if I didn’t move on I know hearing it come from her would make it that much worse. It felt like the day took FOREVER after that! I mean FOREVER! Each time I looked at the clock I swear it had the same time on it! Finally, shift ended, rushed home to find my letter. I didn’t know what to do first…I felt it, it felt thick. Can I really open it? Geez…what if it’s a no…I’ll be so disappointed in myself. Finally I sat down with it, my puppy came to join me. I opened it up and…

I INTERVIEW NEXT WEEK!!!! This is JUST what I need!! : )

All New

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Hello 2013, I had plans to never meet you. My plans for 2012 were to never make it to Thanksgiving. That came and went, my next plan was to not have to go through Christmas and never have to see 2013, but then came a promise.

A 10 day challenge that has turned into much more. A promise I have to keep, however had it gets. Boy has it been hard!! I have spent many nights crying, most alone. I have planned and threw it out. I have sat alone, isolated. I have been torn down, broken, beaten, and belittled. I’m not sure how I keep going.

I spent my New Years working, most if it, then went to see my man and just cried! I spent my New Years in his arms crying. Sunday I left work with a horrible migraine that just keep getting worse. I cried, hard. Tears. So much pain. And I was stuck home alone with no one to help me, I cried more. Went to hell job Monday to deal with more shit than I care to write out right now! I hope that bitch gets run over by a fucking semi!! Then went to my man and just crying from pain. Emotionally and physically. I just cried.

Today…I’m starting day 1 of no work. Fucking bitch! And her retaliation! I’m waiting to see what February’s schedule has before I go to the high boss. I have detailed documentation of every single thing that has happened since October…she is so fucked!

For now…sleep. My body is exhausted. Happy New Year to all my blogging friends! I hope you had a wonderful time!

Migraine Day 2

Day two of a migraine. My man has been over yesterday and today caring for me the best he can. He hates seeing me suffer, he said it breaks his heart. After 48 hours of suffering and just getting worse, he called my doctor. Naturally she is out of town for the week but another doctor in the office approved a new pain medicine for me with the promise to come in next week.

Thank you God! And thank you to this doctor! I’m not 100% better, have a slight ache in my head, if you have migraines you know what I’m talking about, but this stuff is working better than anything I’ve ever tried!! Finally! Something that works!! I will only use it if I have to because it’s a narcotic, which can be very addicting and I don’t want that. But when I truly need it, I know it’s going to work! Finally! Let’s just hope it stays working!