Beyond Pissed

I’m beyond mad, beyond pissed. I’m livid! My anger right now is higher than it has been in a long time! My blood pressure is up, my chest hurts, I have a migraine. My anger is out of control right now! I’m so fucking pissed!

As noted in my blog before, my parents got divorced not too long ago, that is where this started without me knowing. I paid for my car, bought it from my parents…big fucking mistake! I didn’t have a choice, they refused to cosign on a loan, I had no credit history, and they were taking so much of my paycheck that I couldn’t get by as it was. I couldn’t afford food, had no clothes…the same it’s been my whole life. So I paid them over a year for my car and paid it off, once paid off they refused to title it in my name. For YEARS, I fought to get it retitled and they refused!

Then the divorce came…finally, I had the chance to get it titled in my name. I got into a fight with my stupid mother, told her NOT to give that title to my father, and guess what…she did. She told me it was going to titled to my dad and I. Just fucking wonderful! I let her have it, she said there is no reason he can’t be on the title, I told her it was MY car, I PAID for it and I wanted his name off it. I lost. But I lost worse than I even knew.

That motherfucker listed as my “father” on my birth certificate is no father of mine! I’m pissed with that asshole beyond anything I ever thought I could be! Read this and tell me what a bitch I am, I don’t care…you have NO idea the shit I have dealt with my ENTIRE life! You have NO idea what HE put me through!!

So that brings me to today…why am I so pissed? My car plates are due to be renewed at the end of this month, and FINALLY 3 days ago he gave me the notice after trying to get it for WEEKS! Then I had to fight for the freaking tax information…this has just been a nightmare and I have no time off! Then I called the jackass and told him he WILL sign my car over to ME or I’m done ever talking to or seeing him, after days of not answering him, he finally agreed. And that is when I found out how much that jerk fucked me over!
So I went over to pick up the title…a title I was told I’m listed on…and guess what…I am NOT! I am NOT listed on a title for a fucking car I PAID FOR! But that isn’t even the worse part…I was told by my mother AND father that I was listed on that car…that is where they really fucked me over! So I was told I was on the car, when I bought my new one I kept the old one for bad weather days and switch the insurance from my old one off my dads to mine so I could save on my new car…see where I’m going here? IF I was listed on the title this would be legal but as you just learned, I am not listed on this title. The problem here…? I am not legally insured. The other problem here…? I can not renew my license plates.

I am just beyond pissed! Now I have to track down the form for the fucker to “gift” my own fucking car to me, get him to sign the fucking title, and get the damn car licensed to me by the last day of September so I can get my license plates renewed. My chances of it getting licensed to me in time are freaking impossible! If you state is anything like mine, I’m fucked! I’m never going to get it back in time, now I will be fined for renewing the plates late. I’m just so fucking pissed off! Fucking livid! AND I don’t get to just “renew” the plates either, I have to pay a fee for “new” plates despite plates being on there…it’s just a fucking nightmare! I’m so fucking pissed off!

I’m going to take a fucking bottle of benadryl and try sleeping forever! I have so much more to share but for now I’m done. Good night! I sure hope your life is going better than what I am dealing with here.

Warning: Crabby!

This is your warning, I’m fucking grumpy and you’re about to read all about it!!

So last night, as you can see from my post, I didn’t sleep too well. I was up till almost 3am and then when 6am hit my eyes were wide open. No, I had nothing to be up for, I just woke up…my body does that. I’m so used to being up between 3am and 5am that when 6am hits, I just wake up. Sleeping in…I don’t know what that is.

Needless to say this has left me a little cranky, but I manage to make it through the day without killing my mother. I had training all evening and got a text telling me to pick her up ice cream. Number 1, I didn’t drive so I didn’t take my wallet and have zero money…she knows this. Number 2, there are FIVE different containers of ice cream in the freezer, eat it! Number 3, quit treating me like your bitch!! You want fucking special ice cream?! Get your lazy ass up that hasn’t moved from the couch in 3 days and fucking get it yourself!!

I came home to a fucking mess and had to clean up, once again, from her and her stupid drunk ass friends!! I’m sick of it! She can’t take care of her fucking self!

So I come home to her fucking ass ONE THE COUCH on the phone. When she is on the phone the whole NEIGHBORHOOD can hear!! And tonight it was pissing me the fuck off! I need sleep!!!! And you’re so fucking loud I’ll be getting none! And her stupid ear piercing laugh is fucking annoying!!

So I’m grumpy! And pissed off! And I need fucking sleep!!!