Fifty Wonderful Shades

Back when the Fifty Shades trilogy came out I started to read it but schooling and study requirements ended that as quickly as I started. Once the books hit the New York Times list I figured I better read them like the rest of America. Let’s just say you will NOT be disappointed. I hated putting it down the first time I read it, it was very difficult, so when I picked up the books again I was hooked right away. They were so good and addicting that I was basically obsessing over them. I couldn’t put them down, it was like reading the Harry Potter books all over again. I would stay up way later than I should have at night to read. I had it on my phone and my iPad and every second I got to read a few words I did it. If you have not read the books yet then now is the time to stop reading this post…

I was attached to Christian Grey from the beginning and felt every struggle he was going through because I myself deal with the internal demons. I knew from the beginning that Christian and Ana would stay together, she had the ability to change him. I was glad she walked out on him the first time because it really changed their relationship. He gave her “more” just like she wanted. Her birthday present from him brought a smile to my face, he was so caring and thoughtful with it, both the bracelet and the car. This is one of those “love stories” that make you wish some rich guy would come along and you could sweep him off his feet. It was a well written trilogy, just great in every way.

I loved the first book, then fell in love with the second too. The third I loved but I felt like the author was losing focus. The days between their e-mails got longer and the events happening in between were written shorter and with less detail. It was almost like they author lost focus for a bit then came back. I love that Grey’s side of the story was told about the interview at the very end but I didn’t want that to end. I almost want there to be a whole series with Grey’s view and what he was thinking. His mind seemed to work much like mine, though I’m not sure I have Fifty Shades of fucked up to me, I do have the mood changes he does and being trapped inside my head. They just work so well together and I’m glad he offered Ana what she wanted.

I did not want these books to end, they were just addicting! Have you read the books? What do you think about them?

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Complications

Just one of life’s many joys.

Day two on the new job was amusing and everyone made me feel right at home. I had a lot of fun, once again stuck with all guys but after all the bitches problem at my previous job, I don’t mind this at all. They made it fun for me. So far I like everyone I have worked with and met. They had a lot of fun with me too. It wasn’t all fun and games though, we had two pediatric full arrests, both deceased upon our arrival. Sad day for the families and caused by stupid mistakes. Please people, NEVER put your kid in bed with you! Due to this simple mistake, two families are without their angels. Just so sad.

Recently I started reading Fifty Shades of Grey by E. L. James. No, I’m not one of those people that jump on the bandwagon and started reading this because it’s a New York Times Bestseller. I bought these books a while back and just never got around to reading it, which I finally decided to do with the rest of America. Let me just say it is an amazing book so far! But man, I just want to scream out to Ana!! Men can be intoxicating but can’t she see what is he doing?! Why does she let him do this to her?? I just want to scream at her to run!! Run as far away as you can!! I won’t share any details in case you haven’t read it, but you really should. It’ll pull you in from the beginning. I can’t wait to read the next books in the series.

And to conclude this post…I am a ball of emotions today and they have made me cry this evening over the dumbest thing…I don’t know why I started crying but I couldn’t stop the tears once they came. See, I have a dirtbike and riding it is my escape. It was the way I relaxed, I loved it. It helped me more than I can explain. When I ride, that’s all I think about, for once my mind is focused on just one thing, that’s it. My ex (toxic) boyfriend bought it for me and I loved it from the moment I got it. We used to ride all the time. After we broke up he let me keep it, though I think this was to torture me because I now have no one to ride with and no way to haul it.

The bike has been sitting in the garage for the past two years just tempting me. I haven’t been able to ride it or do anything with it and it just majorly sucks! Today I let it get to me too much and I’m not really sure why, but it got to me so much that I started crying. Crazy…I know. I just miss it so much! Being with my OM is great, but he’s not as into riding as I am and neither of us have a way to get it anywhere that I can ride. He also doesn’t feel comfortable with me going with a bunch of guys (understandable) but the problem is…this is a guys sport…I don’t know any girls that ride…it just sucks all around. I hope to get a truck and/or trailer soon though so I can take it places, but that still doesn’t fix the fact that I have no one to ride with…you never ride alone. I’m just really missing it right now… : ( But it’s all a “First World Problem” right?

Regardless of all that, I would never trade my older man for someone younger, even if they could take me riding. He treats me way too good!! He is the best thing that ever happened to me! And it’s not like he doesn’t want me to go riding, we just don’t have a way to go right now. I hope with time that changes.