Have you ever had one of those days where you’re down in the dumps and can’t really explain why? Today is one of those days. I’m tired, in pain, and just feel shitty but I can’t really explain why I’m so down today. I just feel…alone, lost, confused, and sad. My mind is always moving from one thing to the next, I think about things most people don’t and things I probably shouldn’t think about. I’d probably get locked up if I sat down with someone and explained everything that passes through my mind.
The beauty about a blog, this one in particular, is I can say anything I want and it doesn’t matter. I can let my mind wonder freely and I can openly talk about anything I want and if you don’t like it…well, stop reading. You won’t hurt my feelings. I can talk about the government, racial issues, life, stupid people (aka job security) and there’s no one to argue my opinion. No, my opinion isn’t always right, that’s why it’s an opinion, it’s my choice but if you choose to argue with me…well your comments can be deleted very easily because this is my blog and I can do that.
I just feel so stressed and my mind is going a million times a minute and this is my place to be free and say as I please so I will start to take advantage of that. For starters…I don’t give a damn what color your skin is, if you fucked up then you deserve the punishment! I’m tired of there being Black History Month, money for college just for being black, people using the phrase “it’s because I’m black!”, and all that shit! Get the fuck over it!! You don’t see the Jewish people using that against the world or the Germans…they got over it and to be honest, they were put through way worse! There are a LOT of bad people out there and the color of their skin has nothing to do with it! It’s the way they were raise and the person they CHOOSE to be! Yes, they have a choice!!
Just like all these girls getting pregnant and living off the government…grow up! You wanted the kid, raise it! And don’t do it on my tax dollars!! And I am a VERY STRONG believer that if I have to take a drug test to get a job then your ass sure as hell better have to take a damn drug test to get my money!! I’m tired of these lazy people (black AND white) living off my money and using it for drugs. Especially these people that just keep popping out kids for more money. “If you take the money away then the kids will suffer” seems to be a classic politician line…dude, the kids are already suffering!! You think the parents on using that money on them?! Honestly?!? Talk about being blind!
I’m going to open this up for a little opinions here. Feel free to leave any comment you want, it will not be deleted. I want to see what other peoples take is on this matter.
I’m a bad friend, go ahead, say it, I know I am. Let me correct that, I’m a bad ex-friend…seriously, you do not want me as your enemy!
First, a little back story so you understand. I had this friend, she was a really good friend of mine, she ended up pregnant after a hook up in the backseat of her car (and her mom says I’m the bad influence! ha!). Not the best decision on her part, but not my choice. Anyway, her and this guy decide they are going to keep the kid, great. She moves 45 mins away to live with this guy. They seem to be doing good until she’s 8 months pregnant. I get a phone call from her demanding to be picked up ASAP. He’s apparently had another girlfriend since she was about 4 months pregnant and decided he no longer wants a kid or her. So I rescue her, take off work, spend my time and money helping her, get her all moved in with her mom again.
Time comes, she has the kid, and he’s so freaking cute! : ) So I help her some in the beginning, let her know it’s going to be ok and stuff. 2 weeks after having the kid she decides to go to a party, meets a boy there. (Let’s take not here that he’s 8 years older than her.) They hit it off well, become friends and start dating. Meanwhile she is applying for all kinds of state aid and welfare to help raise this child because she doesn’t go to school, works maybe 15 hours a week, and her mother is retired. So she gets all this state aid as long as she lives with her mother.
Well, her and this guy she met hit it off so well that they move in together. She doesn’t notify the state office that she has moved, she lets them continue to believe she lives with her mom. Short time after they find out the child is deaf, poor kid. So they take him to all kinds of specialist (on state money) to figure everything out. He gets a special doctor, hearing aids…the works (good for him!). Well, state decides they are going to pay for one cochlear implant but not the other. She’s pissed! Thinks she has a right for the state to pay for BOTH! State assigns them special teacher for speech therapy and pays for schooling too to a special school to prepare him for kindergarten. All the therapy is done at her mom’s house because that’s where the state thinks she is living.
During all this time they have taken several vacations, to many states. During one of these vacations they meet up with some family who tells them they should sign the kid up for disability. Are you kidding me?!?! He’s not even 5!! But the state approved it! $1200 a month worth!!!! On top of the other money they are getting already! Stupid!! Now, while they are on this vacation they also decide to get “married” but not let the state know it was a legal ceremony. See, she receives a pell grant and gets school paid for PLUS another $2200 a SEMESTER extra to spend on school supplies, gas, etc…they don’t want to get married because they won’t get this money. That means they’d have to actually pay for her schooling…wouldn’t want that.
Now…I should mention that this guy of hers make $28+ an hour…together they make more than enough to not need this state aid. No, they could not live NEAR as comfortable as they are now, but they can survive like the rest of us and still have some left, but they can’t save, just spend, spend, spend. So lets take an inventory…they have a flat screen tv, bought ALL new furniture, Xbox with kinect, a 4-wheeler, a $300 remote control car, a $170 remote control helicopter, a bike, guns, vacations…I can’t keep track! They are blowing money on whatever they want.
Now, what made her my ex-friend, which may sound like a dumb “girl” problem to you, but I have my reason. See, though I am considered a “gifted” child, I am behind in many other departments, kind of like autism (though I refuse to let my doctor test me). Since I am behind in some areas, I am sensitive to being called certain names. Last spring I was finishing up paramedic school and doing a ton of clinicals and working and studying…I was busy! I literally had like 1 to 2 days off each month, it sucked! One day I got a text from her man, now keep in mind here I hadn’t talked to or hung out with any of my friends in a long while, but his text basically asked why I never stop by. I told him I’ve been busy, blah, blah, blah.
Well he doesn’t answer for a few days, then I get another text that says, “You’re acting so stupid! It’s ******’s birthday today and you’re going to miss it! I bet you didn’t even get him anything.” Ok, are you kidding me?! First of all, being called “stupid” is something I am sensitive about, I don’t like it because I believe I really am stupid, especially in some areas. Next, all he’s worried about is what I’m buying the kid…I think they get MORE than enough state money to buy the kid plenty! Well, after talking to my friend about this she didn’t stand up for me (I saw that coming). It’s no loss to me, he was a jerk all the time and she couldn’t care what he did to me.
He used to give me trouble all the time and make fun of me for hanging out with my OM (before we were officially together) but yet he is 8 years older than my friend…8 years is apparently acceptable, where 24 is not. So…all in all, not much of a “loss” losing them from my life.
Now, back to the point of this story…I turned them in to the state for fraud and I’m not feeling the least bit guilty. I know what you’re thinking…you did it because you wanted revenge…wrong! I did it because I’m tired of them, and everyone out there, abusing the system. I think you should have to work for money, not have it handed to you! And I think that if I have to take a drug test to go to work and support YOUR ass, then you better have to take one to get that money!! I’m running for president! lol j/k…it wouldn’t change anything. Now, do you think I made the right choice? Or should I have let it go?
As mentioned before, I love Super Bowl Sunday! Not for the football because I don’t like watching professional football, college is good, not so much professional. I love Super Bowl Sunday for the commercials, especially when it is filled with good ones. This year unfortunately I wasn’t not paying attention to all the parties planned or anything and missed everything, stupid me. However, YouTube is guaranteed to be full of the commercials shortly after, meaning I am going to share the ones I enjoyed the most.
This one is probably my favorite, that dog is so cute! And it just makes you laugh watching it.
This one I like for several reasons. One, at work we have Ford Ambulances…needless to say that was a mistake. Just look up Ford Powerjoke…I’m sorry, Ford Powerstroke problems on google and you’ll see what I mean. Our two newest trucks both blew their engines at the same time…what a night mare! Second, I was born and raised in a Chevy family…this means we hate Fords! It’s just a way of life.
This one is just plain funny.
I HATE this song, but this one makes me laugh. You have to watch the music video of the original song to truly enjoy it. So if you can stand to listen and watch, here you go: LMFAO-I’m Sexy and I know it.
Those were some of the better ones, there’s more out there. Just go to YouTube and search “super bowl commercials 2012” and enjoy.
As for the news…
Alyssa Bustamante, along with several other people lately, seem to be getting off easy. This girl murdered her neighbor just because she thought it would be “fun”…and after, wrote in her journal that it was “ahmazing” and laughed it off. She was able to plead to second degree murder and got life WITH the possibility of parole. This goes along with my other post, WTF is wrong with people!? Far too many murders lately, especially involving children and too many people not doing the time.
I think kids need to watch more Beyond Scared Straight and it should be a mandatory program to finish high school in this country. Too many kids out there thinking their bad asses and know all about life…something like this would at least straight SOME of them up! Or more of these troubled kids need to go on World’s Strictest Parents to straighten them up too. Too many parents don’t raise their kids, they just let TV and society raise them. Too many people having kids and not taking responsibility for it.
I think you should also have to take a damn drug test to get a welfare check but that’s a different argument for a different time. Too much money being given to people because they don’t want to/can’t work and they are living life WAY better than me! And I know one of them using the system right now, she’s got an iPhone, living with her fiance who makes $28+ an hour at work, but they are getting state aid to raise her kid and blowing it on remote control airplanes and crap. They aren’t getting married until she’s done with school otherwise the state wouldn’t pay for it. It’s bullshit because I know people who really do need that money and can’t get it. But that’s a whole different rant, not for today.