Tears, Just Tears

What kind of day am I having? I’m having this one right here…

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This is an “ambulance drivers” alternative to ice cream. Ice cream doesn’t hold too well if you’re stuck in the truck on a long run, so Scooby Snacks and icing it is!

I’m angry today. And scared. And sad. I woke up this morning to my dog not putting any weight on his good leg. His bad leg wouldn’t support his weight either so he’d just fall over. He wouldn’t go outside or eat or anything. He just sat there looking at me until I picked him up and moved him to where I needed him go to. He’d try walking again, it wouldn’t work, then the same thing. I felt horrible for him!

Naturally my mom was gone all night to drink it up. I called, three times, nothing. I finally had to leave for work. I wanted to stay with him but I had no choice. Finally, several hours later she calls and said she’ll go home in a few and check on him. Around noon I get a text saying he won’t walk. No shit…I watched him stumble all morning while your ass was drunk and who the fuck knows where! Around 1pm she sends me another text that says she’s going out because she has another party to be at and my dog isn’t any better. Glad to see your drinking is more important. Thanks!

So now I’m going to have to make an appointment tomorrow to take him back to the vet. He can’t continue to stumble around like that, it breaks my heart. I don’t have the money for this, I can’t even by myself food right now. I’ve been living off scraps, bread and butter. Whatever is on sale, I make it work. But now he needs another vet visit and who knows that this is going to cost. I have to find a way though, I can’t make him suffer. I can’t do this to him.

He’s all I have when I go home.I can’t keep seeing him suffer. I need him better. I need him.

My Baby

It’s been a bad couple weeks and it just go worse today. Sorry I haven’t been around blogging much. My puppy has been sick and I’m just heart broken! That’s my boy!! My baby! : (

Two weeks ago I took him to the vet after he hadn’t been acting like himself for a few days. Normally he is very independent, but when he gets sick he hogs your lap and wants to be with someone all the time. He was extra clingy, then I noticed his body was much warmer than normal so I took him in. After some tests he showed positive for a viral infection, which doesn’t produce a fever normally. So they put him on antiviral for that, an antibiotic in case he had something else causing the fever, and also a pain medicine because he has a knee problem where it pops out of place and he can’t walk.

A week later he was done with all those meds but was still walking funny, so I called the vet. They called in more pain meds, to use as he needs, as well as glucosmine. Well, this morning I was sleeping nicely when I heard my dog jump off the bed and start throwing up. I thought, great…now I have to clean that up. So I get up and he’s whining at the end of my bed which isn’t normal. So I turn on the light and saw bright red blood. I started screaming. I must have scared him because he tried to take off running when my mom came rushing in. It was the first time every my mom scrubbed a floor! But I was scared.

I had to be an hour away for plans so I was impressed my mother agreed to take him to the vet. I called, got him an emergency appointment. 2 hours later, tests all done, they had no idea what cause the bleeding, but it had stopped. They put him on a special diet again, more meds, and to be monitored. They also found his knee out of place, which is why he was walking funny, and put that back for him. I’m sorry worried and because stupid ass people are fucking flakes I can’t even be home with him right now! I’m fucking old people sitting, that doesn’t need sitting! In a house with people I hate and too many fucking rules! I just want my dog!!!!! And I want him better!!!!!!

Frustrated, Confused, and SO Lost!

Well good evening my blogging friends. I’m exhausted to past the stage of being able to sleep. I’m hyped up and restless.

Critical care is kicking my ass!! Though we had an AMAZING teacher today!!! I feel really good about what he taught, it’s the other stuff I’m nervous about. I’m horrible with numbers, given my dyslexia, so lab values are kicking my ass! I’m just trying to study as much as I can but one can only take so much at a time.

I got home from class today to find out my mother didn’t pick up the dog food…yea, had no idea the dogs ran out YESTERDAY!! Ugh! Poor babies are hungry! Been living off the crumbs in the bag apparently! I’m pissed! And by the time I found out it was too late to go to the store. Bitch! Can’t get them fucking food, but she sure can go out drinking EVERY SINGLE NIGHT! Yes, EVERY night this week and for many before! I fucking hate her! I scraped up some treats, cooked some meat, then caved and stole dog food from my dad’s house. They are eating…that’s all that matters. I hope the bitch goes tomorrow to pick them up food. If not, well I’d rather starve myself, so they will eat and I won’t. It’s $58 I don’t have, because she feeds them the expensive stuff, so I guess for a week or more I will just deal with what ever scraps I can find. I’ve been living off noodles, stale bread, and old soup for a few weeks now. I’m used to it.

Other than that, life is just…normal. Hell job sucks, people suck, school is going good…ish, and I’m just getting through it day one at a time. For now…sleep before another full day of studying…and maybe a break or a few for some Xbox, aka stress relief, time.

Good night all!

Super Bowl Commercial 2012 cont.

I’d like to add one more video to my list of favorite commercial from this years Super Bowl. I completely missed this one and absolutely love it! Too cute! And please, rescue a pet if you’re looking to adopt. Please don’t go to a breeder, there are plenty in shelters that need your help! Adopt one like Wegoo! : )

To see more of Wegoo please check out this link and help more dogs like him!

Puppy

I’m sure my dog will end up on here quit frequently because he’s my little buddy! : ) Dogs truly are man’s best friend.

On my way out the door for work, I realized my little man needs a haircut, and bad! I guess because I work so much, I don’t pay much attention to his hair. I’m just excited to see him! So when I return, off to the groomers we shall go!

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My buddy!

Recently I’ve decided to get slightly more serious about my liking with photography. I’ve always wanted to, and I see inspiration around me, so I’m gonna give this a try for a while and see how I do.

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