Breaking Amish

So I don’t normally watch tv. In fact, I never watch tv…ever. People have it on at work but I never sit still long enough to watch it, except for today. I woke up with a horrible migraine, been downing medicine all day and came into work anyway. It’s hell job, but nice and quiet so it’s not so bad I guess. Since I don’t feel good, that means I’m laying around for once. Not something I want to do, I feel extremely restless and bouncing around, but I feel too horrible to fight my mind and body.

As you can see by the title, I’m watching the Breaking Amish marathon and wow…that’s all I can say. I knew they would go crazy, that was predicted, it’s human nature. The wow is for the things that happened as they were growing up and what their lives were like, not what they are doing now. It’s just crazy to watch them. I knew drinking would be a big thing with them, it was expected, but they are really love drinking.

I’ve never been a big drinker, it’s sort of made me an outcase while growing up. I never really fit in with people my age. Don’t get me wrong, I have no problem with a drink here and there, but because of the abuse I hate drunks and I don’t want to be like my parents so I don’t drink. It’s just how I feel and my choice. My man is completely ok with it, which is good, I’m very thankful for that. Most guys that have asked me out always want to go to the bar and I’m just not into that…it’s not me.

Two of these kids were adopted into this life, that must really make it hard. I want to adopt a kid one day, I want to bring them up in a life they may not have had before. I feel bad for those kids that were adopted into that life or any life they don’t fit into. It’s hard not fiting in…I know. But I just hope that when/if I adopt a child, I can help them fit in somewhere in this world. My dad is adopted and he’s extremely bitter about it, maybe that’s why he beat me all the time, but I don’t want my kid to grow up like that. I want them to know how loved they are, exactly the same a biological children of mine.

What I have gotten from this show…I could NOT be Amish! Not because of the loss of technology or anything like that, because I wouldn’t know any better, but because I just couldn’t live that kind of life. I couldn’t live under that kind of control. And leaving would be hard, very hard because you lose everything, but at the same time…what do you really have? It’s just crazy!

I’m glad something interesting has been on all day, because this is helping some. And it’s really interesting to see this, it is great. Now, back to laying down because this migraine is moving from a “functioning” to a “non-functioning” migraine…I could use my man right now. Really really bad!