Not really sending this, just needed to write to get things off my mind.
There are many reasons why I resigned my position with “said department” which I would like to share with you. These are things I did not feel should be included in my resignation letter, however I feel you should know them. Things have been bad at the department for me from the beginning and it just never stopped, things became too much for me. These people here have pushed me to the end of my rope on more than one occasion, but recently I started to question this more and decided I will no longer allow that.
You asked me in the meeting we had not to quit and to give you the chance to fix this, I honestly had full intentions of this when I left. I have full faith and trust in you, I know you want to fix this and help me but the more I started thinking the more I realized that you can’t really help me. These people never stop. These problems have been going on for too long and happen too often for you to keep up and fix them all, it’s just not possible. The problems will never stop
I really am sorry for not giving you the chance to fix this, but you have much more important things to take care of, you don’t need to be worrying about this. I realized that all of these problems come from me, they all involve me, and the best thing I can do to take care of the problem is quit. It’s really that simple. I don’t want to take up your time with these problems, this is why I never came to you in the beginning.
The amount of laziness and lack of appreciation here has also made my decision to quit easier. I work hard over here with very little help and the only appreciation and thanks I get comes from Chief Blank2. I get satification knowing that I’m doing my job and I try to do it well, but when you do it for this long with little to no help, it gets tiring. I love going to PR events, I don’t mind working around the station, I like keeping a clean truck, but when I watch the full time staff with the highest pay not help or appreciate myself, the lowest paid employee, it just makes me not care much anymore. It’s hard to keep motivated when you’re making the least amount of money and the highest paid staff isn’t right there next to you. It won’t stop me from working hard, I like to earn every penny I make, but it makes me not want to come in here anymore.
I was worried about retaliation from my co-workers because no matter what anyone tries to do to protect someone, they will be retaliated against, it’s just how the world works. Without me here, there is no need to worry about that retaliation and it has brought me some relief knowing that. I haven’t been eating or sleeping in weeks, not since things really took a turn for the worse here, but now I have taken comfort in knowing I don’t have to put up with it much longer.
I worried about you talking to Captain Dumbass about the situation, however knowing that I am not returning I no longer worry about this. He has been going around telling people that he is finally getting fired for what he did to me, this is part of why my life at “said department” has gotten worse. I never told anyone, not until our meeting, however I did not divolgue everything that happened between myself and Captain Dumbass. I’m embarassed by it, I just can’t bring myself to talk about it. I found a document on my computer that was written shortly after the events which I have attached to this e-mail for you to read. I know this matter should have been brought to you much sooner, I am truly sorry about that.
I have enough to deal with in my life, I don’t need these people to ruin it anymore than they already have. I am really sorry to waste you time sitting down with you, bringing all these problems to the table and then quit shortly after, but that was not my intention. During our meeting when you asked what you could do to fix this, at that moment I realized that there truly wasn’t anything you could do to fix this situation. This stuff have been going on for far too long to fix. The only true fix for this is for me to resign and the problems will take care of themselves.
I appreciate the experience and opportunity I have had here at “said department”. I really hate to leave, I like working in small town “job”, I get a lot of appreciation and thank yous when out around town and I love that part of my job. However my co-workers have overpowered that part and it’s no longer enough to keep me here. I really will miss it. Things like “one event”, “another event”, 4th of July, they are things I look forward to. I enjoy getting out and working with the public, but it’s not enough to keep me here anymore, I’m sorry.
I appreciation you sitting down, listening to me, and offering to fix these problems, but that isn’t possible for one person. I appreciate the opportunity to work for this orginization and hope you well. I hope you keep a good mind if any future employement calls for recommendation.
Thank you for everything you have done,