One of Our Own

If you have been watching the news, and especially if you are in fire/EMS, then you know what I am talking about here but please do not post the location or department name for my own protection.

Every day, some more than others, I pray I will never be involved in an accident at work. I get e-mails all the time, we attend training classes, and try to prevent the worse. It happens, it happens all over, but I never thought it would happen to me. You never think it will happen to you, that’s how it works. I also pray I will never have to run one of these calls, I pray I never had to find one of my own like I did this week.

A call came in for an MVC with injuries, nothing new. The supervisor decided to respond in case help was needed and I was sent with him, if it was bad I was to board the truck and ride in with them. Ok, no big deal. We walked out to the SUV and started responding. We missed some important information during our walk to the vehicle. We start responding. Shortly after our Chief called responding, weird he wasn’t responding before.

Someone gets on the radio asking for a helicopter eta, my Chief radios they probably fly due to weather. Someone updates with “one person, possible ejection” and nothing more. The radio was pretty quiet most the trip up, at least EMS side was, apparently fire was not. I found it weird all the response, but just continued on.

We were getting close to the location, I got the paperwork ready to jot down our notes and was looking down as we pulled on scene. I will never forget the words my partner said the moment we drove over the hill. “Dear God, it is one of our own.” My heart dropped. I looked up and saw it. A red blur, upside down, people everywhere.

I hoped I would never have to see this in my career and here I am, facing it without any warning. I found out our Chief responded because in the time that it took us to get to our vehicle, EMS was updated on the vehicle involved…an update we missed. I have never been so happy in my life to see someone talking, busted up, but fully alert and talking. Took what felt like forever to get him out, he got himself out. Due to weather there was no helicopter flying, so one hour and 18 minutes later we arrived, by ground, to the closest trauma center. A ride that felt like it would never end, a ride I will never forget.

He is alive, but badly broken all over. I hope to get to the hospital soon and check on him, usually I get there often but apparently not today. I hope I never have to see this again in my career!

Migraine from Hell!

For as long as I can remember I have suffered from “headaches” but it wasn’t till after my bad car accident that they were officially diagnosed as “migraines.” Looking back, they were always migraines but my parents never believed me or took me to the doctor. I suffered daily with some sort of head pain, but learned to deal with it and function. I have what I call “functioning migraines” where I can continue my daily routine, but have to limit my physical abilities to keep it from getting worse. I have different medicines and routines based on how the migraine feels and what I think is causing it. I get so many migraines a month that I am disqualified for any migraine study and most medicines used to treat them. On average I get 3-4 migraines a WEEK! Some worse than others, but most where I can still function.

Lately the migraines have been getting worse. I’m still having problems from this horrible wisdom teeth surgery. They are so bad that I don’t sleep at night, usually waking up 5-6 times a night, or just can’t fall asleep to begin with. Anyone with migraines knows plenty of sleep each night helps keep them away…needless to say my migraines have become much more frequent and worse. Usually I have warning signs that I’m getting on and can avoid it getting worse by taking medicine quickly…last night I had zero warning signs and within 5-10 minutes was down.

This was a non-functioning migraine within minutes! I was in tears! I did everything, heat on my head and neck, pressure, medicine, food, cool dark environment…nothing was easing the pain! Finally, several hours later I drifted into an uneasy sleep. Around 10pm I woke up again in serious pain, took more of my migraine medicine and added more heat. I laid in bed till 1am unable to get back to sleep and in tears again because the pain was do bad.

Finally it hit me, I still have heavy medicine left over from the recent surgery. I’m allergic to Vicodin, but can take it if I take Benadryl too. After the Percocet ran out, they could only write me a Rx for the Vicodin, which I still have most of the bottle left. I got up, popped a Benadryl and Vicodin and I was good to go! I passed out in no time and woke up feeling much better today!! Still have what I call the “migraine hangover” but I am in far less pain.

My man hates to see me suffer with these, he says it brakes his heart. He felt horrible last night, he was stuck at work and couldn’t come care for me. When I’m sick or even just a “functioning migraine” he will do everything for me! Takes such good care of me! Unfortunately last night I was on my own and it was horrible! But I got through. I’m so thankful that he’s understanding and has the patience to deal with me when I have these migraines. He’s my totally awesome man! And I love him fully for everything he does for me!

New Car, Bad Day

As you saw from my post yesterday, I got myself a new car! So exciting!! I have never bought a new car so it was a big step for me. I have an older Chevy Caviler that has 178,000 miles on it and still going strong, but I need to upgrade and get something newer just in case. I decided not to trade in the Caviler because currently one of my jobs has a 50 mile ONE WAY trip to get to and I also want something I don’t care as much about to run around in and rack up the miles on. When looking for a new car I knew I wanted a Chevy just because my luck has been great with them, but I couldn’t decide if I wanted the Malibu or the Cruze. After looking at the size I decided the Cruze was the car for me. Took two days to find a dealer willing to come down to my price and the deal was done…best part, they had the exact car I wanted so I didn’t have to compromise on anything either. Score.

I mentioned in my previous post, When it Rains, it Pours!, about an accident I witnessed a Cruze in and I would like to share more about this accident. I am going to copy information from a local news website, but for my protection I will not include a link or details about the site that posted it, just know this is not my information and shared from another site.

No Major Injuries Reported

It appears miraculous that there were no initial reports of any major injuries in today’s three-vehicle accident. All four people involved were able to walk to ambulances, suffering what appeared to be only minor injuries.

A semi-tractor trailer was traveling southbound just before 1:30 p.m. today, Saturday, March 5. The driver of the truck apparently didn’t see the light turn red at the intersection, according to witness, who was in his car nearby. Witness stated a Chevy Cruze driven by a man was on a side road, had the green light and proceeded to turn left to get onto the northbound lanes. At this point, the semi-tractor broadsided the car states the witness. Luckily, the brand new Chevy Cruze purchased recently was equipped with multiple layers of airbags which provided protection to the driver. He was able to exit the car and walk to an ambulance.

The semi then clipped a Jeep Cherokee in the roadway before rolling over multiple times. The semi proceeded to roll across the northbound lanes, missing several approaching cars and came to rest on its side in a ditch. The contents of the trailer, lime sludge, along with its diesel fuel tanks soon began to flow onto the road and into a ditch. The driver of the truck and a passenger were both able to exit the cab of the semi and enter an ambulance. The driver of the Cherokee appeared uninjured.

Police, ambulance and firefighters soon arrived on the scene. EMTs soon had the patients en route to area hospitals. The police officers stopped all lanes of traffic from 1:30 p.m. through 7:30 p.m. as the accident left a wide swath of debris across the roadway. Towing was called to the scene to remove the vehicles off the roadway.

Take a nice long look at this picture…this guy WALKED AWAY from a DIRECT impact with a semi truck. The speed limit at this location is 50 mph and the semi truck was estimated at traveling at 54 mph before hitting the car and pushing it to the curb. This car was pushed approximately 50 feet and you can see some of the marks on the road showing it pushed.

Want a safe car? I think this is proof that the 5 star safety rating on this car can really live up to it’s name.

In other news, life has had quit the turns lately. Being in a relationship with an older man is not all fun and games and right now is one of those “down times” that come in all relationships. It’s really hard sometimes to keep him convinced that I’m not taking off for some younger guy and today he just struck a nerve and I went off. He makes suggestions all the time and jokes that I’m going to leave for someone younger, better looking, and more active…let’s just say my older man can out do me some days, is definitely not bad looking, and I am NOT after the younger ones (too immature). Today he made a reference about me running off to find a younger guy and that I probably already have one lined up, I just snapped. It really pissed me off today and partly because mother nature and her hormonal imbalance just sucks! I felt bad until he started some more.

After arguments about me having guys lined up he decided to send me a text that said I’m always so secretive but when I asked what that was suppose to mean he refused to respond. I don’t know that the hell is so secretive about me, he knows where I am all the time, he knows who I’m with, what I’m doing, who I talk to…he knows everything because I tell him but then he calls me secretive…what the fuck?! He knows everything about me all the time! It just pisses me off. I HATE overbearing and I HATE controlling!! If he is going to start acting like either…well this just won’t work.

I wish he could just get it through his head that I don’t have other plans and I’m not running off, but until then my communication line is shut down. I decided to let him think on his own for a while. I turned off my phone and it has been off all afternoon and evening. If anyone needs to get a hold of me they know how, but I’m done having this pointless discussion for now. It just went in circles and I ended that. I will not be accused, especially of being secretive and have no backing on how I’m acting that way. I’m done talking and he can go think about it.

It hurts a little bit, not having my best friend to talk to, especially when I have both exciting and depressing news. I could really use being held right now too, but for now I will stay strong and let him think a little bit while I do the same. Sometimes it’s good to take a short break from each other and spend a little time in your own head. My head…well it will take about a million posts to even start to sort that one out and even then you will be so confused and convinced that I need to be locked up. Maybe one day someone will fully understand me, I hate being trapped inside it all the time and not being about to share with anyone, especially the one person I want to most. Once again, some days I am thankful for the way I was raised, the abuse kept me straight and I work very hard for what I have. Other days, I hate this more than anything and wish I had been raised “normal” and with love.