Complications

Just one of life’s many joys.

Day two on the new job was amusing and everyone made me feel right at home. I had a lot of fun, once again stuck with all guys but after all the bitches problem at my previous job, I don’t mind this at all. They made it fun for me. So far I like everyone I have worked with and met. They had a lot of fun with me too. It wasn’t all fun and games though, we had two pediatric full arrests, both deceased upon our arrival. Sad day for the families and caused by stupid mistakes. Please people, NEVER put your kid in bed with you! Due to this simple mistake, two families are without their angels. Just so sad.

Recently I started reading Fifty Shades of Grey by E. L. James. No, I’m not one of those people that jump on the bandwagon and started reading this because it’s a New York Times Bestseller. I bought these books a while back and just never got around to reading it, which I finally decided to do with the rest of America. Let me just say it is an amazing book so far! But man, I just want to scream out to Ana!! Men can be intoxicating but can’t she see what is he doing?! Why does she let him do this to her?? I just want to scream at her to run!! Run as far away as you can!! I won’t share any details in case you haven’t read it, but you really should. It’ll pull you in from the beginning. I can’t wait to read the next books in the series.

And to conclude this post…I am a ball of emotions today and they have made me cry this evening over the dumbest thing…I don’t know why I started crying but I couldn’t stop the tears once they came. See, I have a dirtbike and riding it is my escape. It was the way I relaxed, I loved it. It helped me more than I can explain. When I ride, that’s all I think about, for once my mind is focused on just one thing, that’s it. My ex (toxic) boyfriend bought it for me and I loved it from the moment I got it. We used to ride all the time. After we broke up he let me keep it, though I think this was to torture me because I now have no one to ride with and no way to haul it.

The bike has been sitting in the garage for the past two years just tempting me. I haven’t been able to ride it or do anything with it and it just majorly sucks! Today I let it get to me too much and I’m not really sure why, but it got to me so much that I started crying. Crazy…I know. I just miss it so much! Being with my OM is great, but he’s not as into riding as I am and neither of us have a way to get it anywhere that I can ride. He also doesn’t feel comfortable with me going with a bunch of guys (understandable) but the problem is…this is a guys sport…I don’t know any girls that ride…it just sucks all around. I hope to get a truck and/or trailer soon though so I can take it places, but that still doesn’t fix the fact that I have no one to ride with…you never ride alone. I’m just really missing it right now… : ( But it’s all a “First World Problem” right?

Regardless of all that, I would never trade my older man for someone younger, even if they could take me riding. He treats me way too good!! He is the best thing that ever happened to me! And it’s not like he doesn’t want me to go riding, we just don’t have a way to go right now. I hope with time that changes.

New Car, Bad Day

As you saw from my post yesterday, I got myself a new car! So exciting!! I have never bought a new car so it was a big step for me. I have an older Chevy Caviler that has 178,000 miles on it and still going strong, but I need to upgrade and get something newer just in case. I decided not to trade in the Caviler because currently one of my jobs has a 50 mile ONE WAY trip to get to and I also want something I don’t care as much about to run around in and rack up the miles on. When looking for a new car I knew I wanted a Chevy just because my luck has been great with them, but I couldn’t decide if I wanted the Malibu or the Cruze. After looking at the size I decided the Cruze was the car for me. Took two days to find a dealer willing to come down to my price and the deal was done…best part, they had the exact car I wanted so I didn’t have to compromise on anything either. Score.

I mentioned in my previous post, When it Rains, it Pours!, about an accident I witnessed a Cruze in and I would like to share more about this accident. I am going to copy information from a local news website, but for my protection I will not include a link or details about the site that posted it, just know this is not my information and shared from another site.

No Major Injuries Reported

It appears miraculous that there were no initial reports of any major injuries in today’s three-vehicle accident. All four people involved were able to walk to ambulances, suffering what appeared to be only minor injuries.

A semi-tractor trailer was traveling southbound just before 1:30 p.m. today, Saturday, March 5. The driver of the truck apparently didn’t see the light turn red at the intersection, according to witness, who was in his car nearby. Witness stated a Chevy Cruze driven by a man was on a side road, had the green light and proceeded to turn left to get onto the northbound lanes. At this point, the semi-tractor broadsided the car states the witness. Luckily, the brand new Chevy Cruze purchased recently was equipped with multiple layers of airbags which provided protection to the driver. He was able to exit the car and walk to an ambulance.

The semi then clipped a Jeep Cherokee in the roadway before rolling over multiple times. The semi proceeded to roll across the northbound lanes, missing several approaching cars and came to rest on its side in a ditch. The contents of the trailer, lime sludge, along with its diesel fuel tanks soon began to flow onto the road and into a ditch. The driver of the truck and a passenger were both able to exit the cab of the semi and enter an ambulance. The driver of the Cherokee appeared uninjured.

Police, ambulance and firefighters soon arrived on the scene. EMTs soon had the patients en route to area hospitals. The police officers stopped all lanes of traffic from 1:30 p.m. through 7:30 p.m. as the accident left a wide swath of debris across the roadway. Towing was called to the scene to remove the vehicles off the roadway.

Take a nice long look at this picture…this guy WALKED AWAY from a DIRECT impact with a semi truck. The speed limit at this location is 50 mph and the semi truck was estimated at traveling at 54 mph before hitting the car and pushing it to the curb. This car was pushed approximately 50 feet and you can see some of the marks on the road showing it pushed.

Want a safe car? I think this is proof that the 5 star safety rating on this car can really live up to it’s name.

In other news, life has had quit the turns lately. Being in a relationship with an older man is not all fun and games and right now is one of those “down times” that come in all relationships. It’s really hard sometimes to keep him convinced that I’m not taking off for some younger guy and today he just struck a nerve and I went off. He makes suggestions all the time and jokes that I’m going to leave for someone younger, better looking, and more active…let’s just say my older man can out do me some days, is definitely not bad looking, and I am NOT after the younger ones (too immature). Today he made a reference about me running off to find a younger guy and that I probably already have one lined up, I just snapped. It really pissed me off today and partly because mother nature and her hormonal imbalance just sucks! I felt bad until he started some more.

After arguments about me having guys lined up he decided to send me a text that said I’m always so secretive but when I asked what that was suppose to mean he refused to respond. I don’t know that the hell is so secretive about me, he knows where I am all the time, he knows who I’m with, what I’m doing, who I talk to…he knows everything because I tell him but then he calls me secretive…what the fuck?! He knows everything about me all the time! It just pisses me off. I HATE overbearing and I HATE controlling!! If he is going to start acting like either…well this just won’t work.

I wish he could just get it through his head that I don’t have other plans and I’m not running off, but until then my communication line is shut down. I decided to let him think on his own for a while. I turned off my phone and it has been off all afternoon and evening. If anyone needs to get a hold of me they know how, but I’m done having this pointless discussion for now. It just went in circles and I ended that. I will not be accused, especially of being secretive and have no backing on how I’m acting that way. I’m done talking and he can go think about it.

It hurts a little bit, not having my best friend to talk to, especially when I have both exciting and depressing news. I could really use being held right now too, but for now I will stay strong and let him think a little bit while I do the same. Sometimes it’s good to take a short break from each other and spend a little time in your own head. My head…well it will take about a million posts to even start to sort that one out and even then you will be so confused and convinced that I need to be locked up. Maybe one day someone will fully understand me, I hate being trapped inside it all the time and not being about to share with anyone, especially the one person I want to most. Once again, some days I am thankful for the way I was raised, the abuse kept me straight and I work very hard for what I have. Other days, I hate this more than anything and wish I had been raised “normal” and with love.

When it Rains, it Pours!

My suggestion for the evening…if you plan on typing out a great big post, save more often and especially when the weather is bad! Had a nice big post ready and the storms came through right as I was trying to publish it and the internet went down causing my post to be lost somewhere in cyber world that I can not locate. Apparently when that happens, the saved draft disappears too. That’s a bummer. Since I don’t have as much time as before this post will be short and sweet. I bought a new car!! : )

If anyone is out there looking for a new car I’d like to suggest looking into the Chevrolet Cruze (my choice) or if you need something bigger the Chevrolet Malibu! Both excellent cars and being in my field safety was a big factor in my choice…I have personally seen the Cruze get hit head on then after a chain reaction a gasoline truck ROLLED OVER the entire car…the people inside walked away from the accident without a scratch and refused to go to the hospital by ambulance. They were both in a little pain the next few days but nothing broken or damaged, just muscle pain.

I went with the 2012 Chevy Cruze 1LT with the driver convenience package. I’m loving it! It’s in the blue granite metallic, it’s just beautiful! I will share pictures soon but due to a painful migraine, I’m off to bed and cutting this post short. Damn these storms and deleting my other one!! Tomorrow my man gets to see my new car then he’s taking me fishing. I just love going and he loves watching me enjoy myself. We get to spend some relaxing time together and I can’t wait!! Currently life is good, especially since my car made it home safely and is tucked away from the hail in the garage! Thank you mother nature!

Sunburnt? I have a fix!

It’s that time of year. Today is hit a grand total of 92 degrees…not normal for April! It’s been crazy weather lately, hot to cold to hot again. Today they forecasted 87 degrees so when we went fishing I didn’t bother with sunscreen. Let’s just say that wasn’t the best idea. However, a few years ago I found an amazing cure for sunburn that several dermatologist have recommended. It takes the burning feeling and heat out of your skin, calms the red color, and will usually (if applied right away and twice a day minimum) keep your skin from peeling. It’s always better to prevent the burn all together, but if you do end up a tad crispy, then try this.

You will need to pick up the Coppertone Water Babies sunscreen. I know what you’re thinking…sunscreen? On the burn? Shouldn’t I have used this before? Trust me! You will not be disappointed!! Ok, you need to make sure you get the right now (pictured below), it needs to be in the pink bottle and be the sunscreen lotion, NOT the foaming or spray can kind (these won’t work).

Once you have the proper product start applying right away. Do not put anything else on under this. Also, do NOT take a cold shower!! This makes it worse! In fact, if you feel the need to shower first, make the shower as hot of water as you can stand! Trust me again, you will start to feel better after. Cold water closes your pores and keeps the heat trapped in when you get out of the shower, hot water will open those pores and all the heat to escape offering relief. Apply the Coppertone at least twice a day (morning and evening) and use plenty. Make sure you fully rub it in so it can absorb into the skin. If you watch the red will start to go away right away and as the days progress your red skin will turn to a nice tan.

Once again, it’s always recommended to use sunscreen to prevent the burn, but sometimes it just happens (even with sunscreen). So next time you are out and get a little more crispy than expected, try this for your burn. I’m using it right now. : ) Healing as we speak. I couldn’t wait to get home and get this on my arms and legs to feel the relief. I’m so thankful for learning this that I felt it would be good to pass on.

Please note that I am not trying to sell a product here, not what my blog is about, but I have tried the “off brands” and it doesn’t work as well. It has to be the Coppertone Water Babies or it doesn’t work as well. Feel free to check out their website with other products to help your sun needs, including “tear free” stuff for your children.

Everyone Has a Secret

Secrets. We all have them. Some more than others, others darker than most. We all love them. I was know as the “Secret Keeper” in high school, something that has stuck with me to this day. People have this need to tell me everything, and I mean EVERYTHING, and then tell me I can’t tell anyone. Not a problem, secrets are always safe with me. In high school I knew everything, it was hard coming up with something to tell me that I hadn’t already heard, but everyone knew I wouldn’t talk. Once a secret went in me, it never came back out. If you ask me not to tell anyone (or even if it’s implied) then I will not tell a soul. Which is probably the reason I was drawn to the book I plan on talking about today.

I love books but I can’t read. Let me clarify. I am dyslexic and therefore reading is a chore for me. I can’t “read” words. You give me a word I have never seen and heard together, then I can’t read it. I can’t sound it out and I can’t comprehend it. This doesn’t mean I’m stupid, in fact the opposite, I was one of the smartest in my class. I have learned to adapt and overcome. I have learned to memorize. If I see a word and someone says it for me then I’ve successfully learned that word. If I’ve heard a word my whole life but never seen it written out…well, I have plenty of examples of how that went and it wasn’t good. So for the record, I can’t “read” but I have learned how to overcome this.

With that said, I’ll say it again…I love books!!! But I feel stupid because I’m still in the “young adult” section. I haven’t expanded my vocabulary enough to hit most of the adult books, I can’t read them. I am a Harry Potter kid, those books are the reason I started reading. I felt so connected to the story and a part of it. JK Rowling sure has a knack for pulling the reader in! After that I started reading everything I could get my hands on! I have an entire bookshelf overflowing with books and I can’t wait to have a house so I can have an office/library full of book! That’s my plan, along with a handful of children to bring into this world. I can’t wait to have kids! But that’s a different story for another time. Today’s story is about secrets, specifically one involving a great President of this nation, Mr. John F Kennedy.

My grandparents still talk about the kind of President he was, a person that everyone liked. I love hearing stories about the past, whether it’s our nations history, stories of the world, or just someone telling about their past, I love to listen. After JFK’s death it became known that he loved his women and he loved to have a lot of them in his life. There are stories, newspaper articles, books, and even some movies on the subject, but there is one book in particular that caught my attention. This book just grabbed me and pulled me in, much like the Harry Potter series. I started this book yesterday afternoon and finished it early this morning. It was so good I couldn’t put it down and fall asleep. If you’re into history, untold stories, secrets, love affairs, or just enjoy reading I think you too will enjoy this book. What is this book you ask…

Once Upon a Secret by Mimi Alford

“In the summer of 1962, nineteen-year-old Mimi Beardsley arrived by train in Washington, D.C., to begin an internship in the White House press office. The Kennedy Administration had reinvigorated the capital and the country—and Mimi was eager to contribute. For a young woman from a privileged but sheltered upbringing, the job was the chance of a lifetime. Although she started as a lowly intern, Mimi made an impression on Kennedy’s inner circle and, after just three days at the White House, she was presented to the President himself.
 
Almost immediately, the two began an affair that would continue for the next eighteen months.
 
In an era when women in the workplace were still considered “girls,” Mimi was literally a girl herself—naive, innocent, emotionally unprepared for the thrill that came when the President’s charisma and power were turned on her full-force. She was also unprepared for the feelings of isolation that would follow as she fell into the double life of a college student who was also the secret lover of the most powerful man in the world. Then, after the President’s tragic death in Dallas, she grieved in private, locked her secret away, and tried to start her life anew, only to find that her past would cast a long shadow—and ultimately destroy her relationship with the man she married.
 
In 2003, a Kennedy biographer mentioned “a tall, slender, beautiful nineteen-year-old college sophomore and White House intern, who worked in the press office” in reference to one of the President’s affairs. The disclosure set off a tabloid frenzy and soon exposed Mimi and the secret that she had kept for forty-one years. Because her past had been revealed in such a shocking, public way, she was forced, for the first time, to examine the choices she’d made. She came to understand that shutting down one part of her life so completely had closed her off from so much more.
 
No longer defined by silence or shame, Mimi Alford has finally unburdened herself with this searingly honest account of her life and her extremely private moments with a very public man. Once Upon a Secret offers a new and personal depiction of one of our most iconic leaders and a powerful, moving story of a woman coming to terms with her past and moving out of the shadows to reclaim the truth.”

Quoted from Amazon

This book was so well written and interesting to hear. It’s hard to believe that with so many people around this would be possible, but I have no doubt in my mind that it really did happen. Part of what also drew me in was this is an age gap story as well, however it shows that there are bad sides to age gap relationships. In this book Mimi talks about 3 particular instances where President Kennedy used his age and power over her, but she finally stood up to him. It’s also interesting to see a different side of the President, a side that very few people know and talk about. I think you will enjoy this book. It was a quick read for me, someone who can’t read, so you can probably finish it in a few hours. If you do read it please let me know what you think.

“I kept this secret with near-religious discipline for more than forty years, confiding only in a handful of people, including my first husband. I never told my parents, or my children. I assumed it would stay my secret until I died.
It didn’t.” -quoted from Once Upon a Secret, Chapter 1

I will always love you

Is anyone else out there tired of hearing about Whitney Huston? Her funeral is on today so the newss has nothing else to report. The woman had some good songs, I grew up on them, but I really don’t care anymore. She died, everyone is sad, the end. Too many celebraties are dying from overdoses and it’s getting far too much attention. I think troops that die are far more important. Just saying.

I finally found an iPad case I like! Been using this one since last night and it’s great! Minus one little detail…there is no hole on the outside for the camera. I don’t use it often, but it would be kind of nice to be able to use this feature. At least I have the front facing camera, that’s the one needed he most for skyping and facetim.

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Now that I have finally found a case I like, life is good.

Other than that, life has been pretty boring, just a whole bunch of work. Today is Mardi Gras, meaning it’s going to be a busy day at work all through tomorrow about mid morning. Several of the local pubs, which includes every single one in this town (8), is having shuttles to downtown for drinking. Should bring plenty of drunks into town like it did last year. Our cops will be busy and we will be listening just waiting for a call to come in. The crazies will be out tonight, the drunks driving, and none of these mix well. Naps will be taken at some point before 3pm (I hope) to prepare for the evening.

There’s certain holidays you’re aware of when you put in for the days you’re available to work, this holiday is not one of them. I only remember things like Christmas, Easter, Halloween, New Years, Thanksgiving, and my birthday of course! But other than that, I forget and always end up working the be drinking holidays, which is fine by me because I don’t drink. I mean I’ve had drinks from time to time, small glasses of wine and stuff, but I don’t drink on a regular basis and I don’t get drunk. Those of you that do like to party, don’t drink and drive or someone like me will be picking you up off the highway or helping someone that was completely innocent in the matter. It’s not usually the drunk that get hurt, it’s the innocent people they hit. So please don’t drink and drive because you do not want to live your life with the guilt knowing you killed or seriously injured someone.

Hunt for an iPad2 Case

I have been searching for a new case since the day I bought the iPad2 Otterbox Defender case. Don’t get me wrong here, Otterbox makes a great case, I used it on my phone before I got the Lifeproof case, and they make great dry boxes, but lately their product seems to be going down hill. I was not a fan of their iPhone 4 case, way disappointed compared to the iPhone3/3G case. MUCH less durable, I can’t count the amount of times they replace my iPhone 4 defender case. Finally, one day I stumbled upon the Lifeproof case and my life was complete! I didn’t care much for the price tag, but was getting tired of the broken Otterbox cases, so I switched and am SO glad I did!

As for the iPad2 case, I like it but it has turned out to be a disappointment too. It feels cheap and also keeps breaking. I am not destructive with my stuff, especially something that pricy, but the little abuse it does take, this case can’t seem to hold up. Since this case has aggravated me more lately, I started shopping around for a new one. When looking at Best Buy one day I came across the Survivor case (seen below). It looked like an extremely durable case and seemed to have good reviews so I picked one up this evening and decided to try to out. My iPad spent a total of one minute, maybe two, in the case before I removed it and packed it back up to be returned. This case was a major disappointment!

This case is designed to be very durable, I like that! In fact, that is the reason behind me buying it, I love the durability of it, but that’s where my liking stops. Once in the case, there was a sort of gap between the screen on this case and the screen of my iPad because I had to push really hard to operate the touch screen and could feel the gap between the two. I would like to also mention that EVERY port on here is covered! So, if you want to use the camera, you have to open that by pulling back the rubber protector. You want to use the mic? Well you have to uncover that too. You want to use the speaker? Yep, you have to uncover that too. So, basically if anyone tried to facetime me or message me on here, I would not be able to hear it because the sound does not magically come through the thick rubber cover that goes over the speakers. Not a fan of any of this. And last, the weight, it adds a lot of it! Doesn’t seem like it would when you are holding just the case, but that rubber stuff is thick, meaning it’s heavy.

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Since I can’t seem to find a case I like, it’s back to shopping around for me. I had thought about trying a case with a keyboard built in, but that’s one more thing I’d have to keep charged. I guess it’s back to the Otterbox case for now until Lifeproof finally comes out with their iPad case! Hurry up guys!