30 Day Challenge: Day 2

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Day 2 and going strong. Time for 20 facts about me…try to keep up!

1. My mother was 8 months pregnant when she found out she was having twins (surprise!). She named me after the song she heard on the drive home, lucky baby number 1 right here.

2. My childhood was living hell (or at least close to it). My father physically beat me any chance he got, and as an added bonus I got to listen to him call me names and degrade me. My mother loved to remind me how worthless I am, how I will never amount to anything, and make me feel so helpless. Both my parents are extremely controlling, to the point where it effects my daily life, they literally scare me.

3. I LOVE my job and career, but I HATE the politics! So much so that I’ve considered finding a new career.

4. I hate our current president and his clan of mindless idiots. They are ruining this country and his damn color has nothing to do with it, he’s just an idiot! I think the government should be VOLUNTEER positions!

5. I own several handguns that are practically always on me. I will exercise the right to defend myself if you feel the need to threaten me. I pray I never need it, however I will if I have to.

6. I am currently working 7 jobs (yes SEVEN) just to stay afloat! This UNaffordable health care SHIT is drowning me! I can’t make ends meet anymore and it’s killing me.

7. If I could afford to go to school to be a doctor I would! I would love to be an ER doctor or something but I will never be able to afford that.

8. I really wanted to join the military after high school but a car accident paralyzed me from the waist down for several hours and due to a traumatic head injury I can’t even qualify for the National Guard. It hurts me bad that I could never join. I hate it.

9. I love taking pictures and share my work and sell some too. I just wish I had a job that supported more travel so I could get out and capture the world.

10. I am a loser. Between the 7 jobs and basic housework I have no life. Seriously it’s work and home, nothing else. I’m a loser.

11. I don’t drink. Ever. Not even a sip, I refuse to be like my parents. Because I don’t drink I’ll never find a guy, I hate clubs and bars so I’m “weird”…you know, the loser.

12. I made a promise to my man that I would “keep an open mind” at his request. I have always wanted kids and a family but he thinks I should have that with someone my age so we can “grow old together”. He wants me to keep an open mind to any guys out there, encourages me to date and meet new people, and wants nothing nothing more than me letting him know if I’m going on a date, and he wants nothing in return. He just wants me happy. But until someone comes along he is still my man and as much as I want that family, I’m in no rush to leave the man that treats me like a God. He is SO good to me!

13. My dog is my life. He is the only one that is always there for me, loves me no matter what, and has become my best friend. If a rare occasion comes that I’m off work, I don’t want to leave home because my furry buddy can’t go. We will literally lay in bed staring at the ceiling for hours just because I can’t leave him.

14. I love to geocache! It really sucks working so much, I wish I could go more. But what I really wish…I wish someone paid me to geocache and take pictures. How great would that be!

15. I have a horrible case of ADHD! It has been known my whole life. Teachers in school use to just send me off because I couldn’t sit still, never got written up, no suspensions, not detentions either but I literally skipped class all the time and barely ever did homework (between the beatings and the ADHD, I didn’t have time).

16. I can never sleep. Ever. It takes hours to fall asleep, I randomly wake up at all hours, and I always wake up before 6:30 for some reason. I am living in a constant stages of tired.

17. I love water! I am a strong swimmer. I can spend hours swimming and not tire out. I can tread water at the lake for hours and do laps too. I love to wakeboard and basically all things water.

18. I’ve thought about killing myself more times than I care to remember, and I still think about it often. I’ve tried a couple times but that was before I knew how. I never told anyone.

19. I live with migraines almost daily. I have “functioning” migraine, which basically means I can get up and still work, though it’s not easy. I am always in pain and it’s horrible.

20. One day, I will change the world. I don’t know how, but I will.

My Life in a Nutshell

Boy has life been busy! In the past 19 days I have worked 18 of them. Apparently everyone decided to give me shifts at the exact same time, then several people called for me to pick up shifts and stupid me couldn’t say no. But that’s ok, I have two days off, picked up another 3, then two more off. I need the money SO bad right now, I just have to deal with it. Fuck you Obamacare! You fucked me over royally! I hope you get impeached! You are by far the WORST President we have ever had! And NO, your color has nothing to do with it…you’re just a fucking idiot! There, I said it. And if you tell me I’m work, I have plenty of evidence to prove you wrong. You need to educated yourself.

Anyway, back to my life. So I’m keeping busy with work. Joys. I’m really looking forward to next weekend. My man and I are going on our little camping trip to get away and talk. He said he left like he did in hopes that I would find a “nice young man” to date. He said he loves me so much he wanted to do “what was best for me” but as we know, that wasn’t exactly what was best or how to handle it best. He’s back in my life because he realized it wasn’t the best for me, but he wants me to stay open to finding someone. I am really looking forward to this trip though, time to get away from this world!

This fall I am going to Michigan for my photography. My man is taking me, he wants to encourage my photography and he loves my work, so he is taking me up there to get some pictures he wants and is encouraging me to take many more while I am there. I’m really excited about this because we have some really nice locations planned and I’m ready to take some more pictures. It has been a while, I just haven’t felt like it really. So I’m ready to get out there and get some more. In a new place too! If I haven’t shared my photography page with you and you want to see it, please e-mail me or comment with your e-mail and I will share it. I have a Facebook page and Instagram too that I share my work on, some pictures can be ordered directly from a website too if you like the work. If you just want to see it and not buy it’s cool, I just like sharing my pictures.

Finally, despite working a million days in a row I am keeping up with the Geocaching challenge, I have 13 caches for the 13 days of August so far, how many have you gotten? It’s tough keeping up with working but I’m going strong!

Where Have the Days Gone??

Life has been crazy! As usual, crazy busy! I had wonderful orientation and tons of fun, despite the problem child starting problems. I love my new job, it was so much fun! I love the people there and the bosses seem to like me. What little time I do have off has been spent caching…or sleeping. I’m really not sure how much I have slept, but I know it’s not much. I’ve been getting horrible migraines lately which are keeping me from sleeping. If you have migraines then you know that not sleeping makes the migraines worse. I haven’t done much of anything lately.

I have tried hiding some geocaches lately, which isn’t going so well. There are some trails around here that charge a fee to be used, which apparently means these fall in the “commercial geocache” rules. I have reviewed them MANY times and I have even found geocaches that required a fee to access, but somehow these weren’t “commercial geocaches” and mine is. I swear, nothing is easy. We have some rough caachers around here and some tough reviewers. So now I’ll have to wait and see what groundspeak says, but I really hope these get approved because I have a wonderful idea with them! Damn rules!!

I’m going to lay down some more. I hope all my bloggers out there are living a great life! Have fun and smile!

Geocaches Gone Wrong

A friend sent me this link recently, I just have to share! This is awesome! The link to see all the caches listed is here: http://www.geocaching.com/bookmarks/view.aspx?guid=909c9502-796e-442f-aa8f-b71be68a772b

There are so many here but I will share a few that really had me laughing.

GC185AN – Short Circuitry – This cache was destroyed because it apparently looked too much like a bomb. Yep…our paid officials keeping busy.
On 5/6/08 a user posted: Might need maitenance!!! Today there was a three hour hold up on HWY 101 at the bridge. There were rumors going around that there was a “bomb” under the bridge and sheriffs and caltrans were sent out. Pretty much all morning we heard sirens going by….I think the geocache may have been mistaken for a bomb? Couldn’t investigate as there was a huge commotion…The owner then posted: This geocache was destroyed yesterday by the local authorities and Department of Defense. Apparently, it looked too much like an explosive device. As the cache is no longer in place, I am archiving this listing immediately.

GCR9H3 – “The Sting” – This one is just epic…it is probably best not to put a cache next to a police department without permission! This cache was published, found, destroyed, and archived all in the same day! The final note posted on it said, “Oh muggles!” Couldn’t have said it better myself!

GC2F7RD – 1-800-GOT-TWEEZERS? – Ok…if you are going to hide a geocache…it’s probably best to share that with the neighbors. This one never even had the chance to be found! I’ve had my share with law enforcement while caching, most know all about it!

GC1PVBV – A Century on Century – This is just…well awesome but not! Geocaching is truly at your own risk and it is quit the risk if you end up arrested and fined 10k for it. That’s one BAD day of caching!

GC1240D – A Knight’s View – I have been here! Let’s just say a cache near a school, especially in Colorado…bad idea…

There are SO many! I could share all night! When I could use a good laugh again, I will share some more. Enjoy!

Can’t Sleep

Again. So tired. Still.

This is day 4 of sleepless nights, so much on my mind and no way to organize it and get it out. I have been off my ADHD meds for almost a week, partly because I forget to pick up my Rx and partly because I can’t afford it. Another major set back when it comes to money and health bills. Will it ever end?!

My stomach has been so sick lately. Either from the lack of quality food, or the lack of food in general. I can’t remember the last time I had a meal, like a real actual meal. I’ve been living off snacks and whatever I can round up. Mainly noodles, soup, chips and crackers left half finished in the pantry, etc. I’m still too skinny, my doctor keeps telling me that, I have been too skinny my whole life. My body metabolizes WAY too quickly, it takes 3 times the amount of meds on me as it takes to keep an average adult male under for surgery. My doctor described average adult male as someone between 180-200lbs…it takes 3 times the drug they get to keep my little 110lbs self under! I was impressed.

My doctor wants to put me on medicine to slow my metabolism, I don’t want any part of that! She told me I have to start eating more and specific foods but I can’t afford that. I’m not gaining any weight I’m suppose to be and because my body metabolizes too quickly (even when I get healthy food) it’s not absorbing the calcium, magnesium, and potassium my heart needs. Without my vitamins for that stuff I get really bad heart palpitations, winded, dizzy, and almost pass out because it puts my heart into A-fib. I think I’ve talked about this before. I hate taking the vitamins, but it looks like I’m stuck with it for now because three weeks ago when I ran out…well it was bad. I looked and felt like shit! My EKG looked just as horrible too! I was going from A-fib at a rate of 60 to a rate of 160 in few seconds, my heart rate was all over, my BP was 60/40, it was a mess! I’ve had BP of 62/44 before, doctor was afraid I would pass out, but that can be normal for me, it’s when the A-fib joins the mix that causes problems.

I refuse to relay on meds! Even vitamins!! I want off it all! But I’m stuck for now. I know I’ll never be able to get off the ADHD meds, I try to control it but that’s pretty much impossible. It also increases outbreaks of PTSD symptoms and increases the intensity, so staying on medicine to control me keeps all that away…at least a lot less problems.

I’m rambling. I’ve just been stuck at home a lot because I can’t afford to go anywhere but work. I did have some fellow cachers “kidnap” me today, they said I need to cache but I can’t afford the gas so they picked me up. I did a “power series”, many caches in a row, very close together. Even though they already had them, they drove me to each one. We also got some amazing caches with high difficulty, some awesome boxes, and just some cool caches all around! I ended up getting 205 caches in one day!! Which is pretty unheard of around here and we drove past SO many without stopping! I can’t wait to go back! We even did a “tunnel” cache, which had become quit popular in America from all the cachers I talk to. They are hidden in storm drains, you squat and crawl through, we were a soaked muddy mess but it was TOTALLY worth it!

I guess I’ll try to sleep, I just hope I can! Good night all, hope you’re having a great week so far!

Calling My Geocachers!!

My fellow cachers, I need your help dealing with a real piece of work cacher. I will fill you in through e-mail, but if you are willing to help me out please e-mail me at our24yearagegap@yahoo.com. I just need you to submit a log for me, that’s all. This isn’t something I normally do, but I will explain if you e-mail me.

Thanks! Hope everyone is having a better week than me! People are assholes!