Dear Best Friend

I saw you recently and I can’t begin to tell you how much it hurt. It hurt being so close and not saying a word to you but I know it’s for the better.

I made a promise to you and I don’t know if I can keep it anymore. I’m hurting so much worse than I can bring myself to explain to anyone. You always understood and no matter how I felt I could talk to you. But I don’t have that option anymore. I’m here alone, with no where to turn.

Im begging and pleading for this life to end because I can’t do it myself. I can’t stay here. I just can’t. I’m ready for it to end. I can’t keep feeling all this hurt. Everyone hurts me. I hear the same lies and the same promises but in the end it’s always the same. I’m always alone and hurting with no where to turn.

I’m begging for it to stop. I’m pleading for this pain to go away. I can’t do it anymore.

Hurt

Tonight I learned how insignificant I am to this world. If I’m gone it won’t matter. I can be replaced. Very easily replaced. In fact, no one will notice if I was gone unless they needed me to do something for them. No one cares what happens to me. If my so called “best friend” can walk away then so can everyone else. I mean nothing to this world.