I’m Giving Up

When I first got into this field I volunteered 6 months on the ambulance waiting for them to hire me. I have fought for every job I have to prove myself. Every day I work my ass off, cleaning, working, doing everyone else’s work. I volunteer to help all the time, do extra hours, volunteer time, stay around to help, but does it matter? Does it mean anything?

No. It never does and it never will.

I see people all the time get hired, never having to volunteer. People say what excellent employees they are, but I see them sitting around all the time. Zero experience and just walk into a job. They get full time while I’m busting my ass to stay on the part time list.

It pisses me off! More than I can ever explain! More than it probably should. I can’t explain the hurt inside me, the feeling of being forgotten. I can’t stop the pain and I can’t explain why it’s so strong. Tonight I can’t handle it anymore. I’m done! I give up! I quit! I’ll never be good enough, ever. It’s as simple as that.

Zero Logic!

Hey, let’s push for “income equality”! It’s great, that guy flipping burgers total receives a doctors pay, right? Let’s take away ALL incentive to work and thrive, to push to be more, why try? I can make more money doing nothing and not having to go to school! Great idea!!

Oh, and let’s raise minimum wage, because someone flipping burgers definitely deserves more money. Yep, they totally deserve pay HIGHER thank I currently make. You trust your LIFE, your families life, in my hands. You pass your injured child to me without a second thought. You trust me with your whole life. I can do no harm, we strive to do no harm. But that man flipping burgers deserves MORE pay than I CURRENTLY make!

Please take a moment to let that sink in!

He messes up, no big deal. I mess up, game over.

“Social security is going broke.” “We have to cut benefits for Veterans.” You know what, welfare ought to be the thing going fucking broke! We owe everything to our veterans and the senior citizens earned their retirement!! They EARNED it! NOT some sponge on welfare!

Don’t bother replying liberals, I’m NOT in the mood tonight. This is my page and my right to rant and I’m using it right now! Fuck the government! Congress and the President ought to be a VOLUNTEER position! Getting half the fucking year in vacation is complete bullshit too!