So, it has been one hell of a weekend in my life. Got to spend some time with the man of my life, which was awesome! But the family had to ruin some things again. Spent a lot of my time working, which is normal, seems like I never have a day off, which is about to change soon. After today I have over a week off because my Captain has gone back to screwing with me.
My Captain is a perverted guy that will screw anyone and I’m pretty positive he has slept with every female that has worked here, something I plan to NEVER let happen. One day he was messing around with people and I walked passed him while he was sitting in a chair. I can’t recall what the conservation was about, but it was sexual in nature because that’s just how he is. When I walked passed him he grapped me by the waist, pulled me down on his lap, leaned me forward, slapped my ass and told me I’ve been a bad girl. I know what your thinking, “That’s not that bad.” To me it was, I did not like it at all!
This guy has told me for years what a great MILF I’ll make one day and how good my ass looks. I’ve overheard him making comments to other people that he’d love to f*** me. All of this I didn’t care for either because I’m not going to sleep my way to the top. I brushed it all off and let it go because in this field I’m going to hear a lot of comments, I already have, but when he physically put his hands on me…that was the end of the line.
After a few weeks of holding it in, I finally told the boss, but mostly because he told me to or he’d start asking around and I didn’t want that. See, this captain is not the brightes person, he went from scheduling me 20 or more shifts a month, to just 4 for the entire month, all because I wouldn’t sleep with him and told him not to touch me. At that time I made the choice that I just want a sit down with the Captain and inform him that it is not to happen again, looking back that was the worse decision I ever made! I didn’t want to be the reason for someone being fired.
Ever since the incident and the sit down with the boss, it seems every 3 months or so he starts screwing with me again and based on the next schedule he’s at it again. So every couple of months the boss has to remind this guy that I let him keep his job and he needs to stop messing with me. This time I didn’t go to the boss, he saw I wasn’t scheduled, asked to see what I put in available for the month and is going to my caption on his own because I have 5 shifts for the entire month when I put in for 26 shifts available…bit of a problem there. Especailly when people much lower in senority than me that are not released from probabtion are getting more shifts than me and beating me out for shifts.
I bust my ass around work, washing trucks every day, checking supplies, cleaning the station, etc and it just gets me in trouble and less shifts than the people that sit on their butts all day. I think I earned having more shifts, but instead I get less. It just sucks having to deal with all of this. I wish more than anything that he had never done what he did and put me into this situation, but I am majorly starting to regrete not getting him gone all togther because now I’m stuck dealing with it. I’m trying very had to find a new job, but it’s a slow process around here. I just want a job where my hard work is appreciated.
Currently I am preparing for my NREMT Paramedic exam which is a joke. Their whole testing process and their organization is a joke in general. I know several people that have made it through their testing process and they are shit on the street! And I know several other people that can’t pass the test but would be amazing paramedics. NREMT needs to either be taken away or reevaluated because it’s a joke. The questions on the test will do zero good when working on the trucks, we’re not doctors, we’re paramedics. I don’t care what cells produce what, or any crap like that. I need a basic knowledge of how stuff works, but not the full knowledge, it doesn’t do me any good. It just make me mad their whole stupid process.
While preparing, I have been taking some break time to keep me focused. On Saturday my awesome man took me down to some rivers to scope out float trips and camping sites. We found some awesome places to camp! And I love the rivers here! We have so many to pick from, some crystal clear, others the muddy type, big deep ones to little shallow ones. I can’t wait till its warmer and we can start going on float trips again! I’m so excited! We currently have a 4 day float planned with some friends and I’m so excited for it!
During the Saturday morning though our trip was almost ruined. My car needed some work done and my uncle does it all regularly. I had planned on dropping it off the morning before we left but he told me to wait till he calls. Naturally he called and said he could do it but I was already gone. So I asked my brother, who is unemployed, failed out of college, and has no life to drop it off…I had to pay the little shit $20 to do it! And I’m pissed at my mom for making me.
For 2 years I had to wake up every single day to get the little brat and drive him to school because he didn’t FEEL like taking the bus! I’ve done all kinds of stuff for him, buy him food, take him places…just countless crap! And the ONE time I ask him a favor I gotta pay him?! F*** that! I’m not doing a single thing for any of them anymore…ever! Am I wrong for thinking this?
Other than that, life has been pretty normal, just trying to servive each day. Till next time, thank you for reading my blog!